The End but Life goes on . . .

The End but Life goes on . . .

My blogging started with a feeling so pure and magical and very close to my heart – Love. I was at the top of the world and it made me unreel new dimensions within me. Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts, rejection hurts, losing someone hurts, even envy may hurt. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt rather it makes you strong at heart. Albert Einstein said – “Don't let your brain interfere with your heart” and I truly agree with him. Our minds can be delured sometimes but as it is rightly said – “Our heart is in the left but is always right”.

Life is full of ironies and I am a living example of it. I might be the luckiest person on this Earth but still the unluckiest of all. I frequently hear people say to me – “I envy you” and they would love a life like me and I always say in my heart – “May you never have a life like mine”. Yes, I did fall in love but believe me gravity had nothing to do in this. I loved someone and I loved her so much that I even forgot myself in front of her. It might not have been reciprocated but it doesn’t matter much as I never had any expectations from her. “इश्क दी मेरे मित्रा पहचान की, मिट जाए जदों जिद अपनान दी”. I might have got carried away for a few moments but that’s it. Getting carried away is typically not of my taste.

Well, when there was nothing from her side, what is this blog all about?  This is to mark the end of a very beautiful journey, an experience worth cherishing but even memories are not in my fate. (Ohh, from when did I start believing in stuff like fate or destiny???) Reality is quite subtle in its own nature. As per Zeno’s paradox, it is quite simple that we would never ever meet coz we would always have that infinitesimal distance between us. In simple terms, I mean that as promised, its over from my side. I don’t see her when I close my eyes now. I might not be as happy as I was a few days ago but as I always say - life goes on and its not gonna stop for anybody. Life is beautiful - enjoy it to the fullest and Have a nice day ! :-)

I, Me aur Main

I, Me aur Main

No, I am not writing this motivated by some stupid movie. Its mere coincidence that I found this title suitable for my blog. So, what am I up to today. I just want to admit that I am tooooo selfish.

When I send you SMSs, I just wish to be remembered. When I like your posts and pics on facebook, I wanna be liked. When I call you to know about you, my soul aim is to be in your thoughts. In fact, as you have already seen, I have posted my blog in facebook and Google+ for you to visit. May be I fear too much of being lost in the crowd, becoming a mere spectator watching out from an old album. Its not that I am too social or friendly or something. Rather I am avoiding many people these days but yes, the only reason why I am still active on facebook is just to be in touch with you.

I might be a little insecure in thinking people will forget me in due course of time but am I wrong??? Thats the way most of us(me included. I am not an exception) are these days. You don't call, SMS or ping a person for 1-2 months and pooof!!! you are out of his/her life. Just like snapping of your fingers. Wow, thats quick, quicker than even my thoughts. But, I wish to be a part of your life, even a small part would do. My selfish self-esteem is again not caring for any of your feelings or whatever you might think about me but I want my happiness to prevail throughout my life and that my friend, can't be complete without you.

I remember a few lines by a very 'mahaan vyakti' quite apt for my blog -

Duniya ye badi sayani hai

ajab yahan ki kahani hai

har dil yahan adhoora hai

aur chahta hona poora hai

par jaane kahan atakta hai

kis raah pe ye bhatakta hai

meethe bas do vachan to bolo 

aankhon ke pardon ko kholo

khuli aankhon se jahan hai sundar

band aankhon se kaala saaya

rone se hai kuchh nahi milta

tumne kya khoya, kya paaya

paana hardam nahi jaroori

na jane hai kaisi majboori

masti me chahein rehna choor

par sangi-sathi se hi hain door

manjil to mila par raha main akela

chhoota jane kab khushiyon ka mela

har din ko naya banate dost

har pal me khushi dilate 'most'

doston ki dosti, hamein

jaan se bhi pyari hai

duniya ke rishton se badhkar

ae yaar, ye teri yaari hai . . .

I have got Wings

I have got Wings

I had always dreamt to fly in the sky, free as a bird. For the last 1 year, I was trying to persuade my friends to go for paragliding with me but in vain. Then I decided to go alone but rockingly (don’t mind this English mistake please), my brother and sister decided to accompany me for this (seems like adventure is in our blood). Our parents had all kinds of fears but I persuaded them and we went to Temple Pilots for our 3 days basic course of paragliding in Kamshet. We reached their base at 7:30 am and we had to go for the training straight-away. Soon, we were at the training hill and were briefed about the glider, its controls and the plan for the next 3 days of our stay.

Then we started the ground handling of the glider. We were shown how to inflate the glider, control it in the ground and run with the glider. It was looking quite simple but when we actually started to do it ourselves, we realized how difficult it was. When the glider was inflated, it exerted too much pressure on the hands and even pulled us back. Holding it and controlling was a difficult part and running with the glider even more. The glider would be deviating to its left and right with the wind and we would have to change our course of run with the glider to stabilize it. At times, the glider would even lift us up making it difficult to run. Finally after numerous tiring tries, we managed to control the glider properly on the ground.

Ground Handling of glider

Next, we were ready for our first small flights or hops as they are called. We climbed the training hill half-way and had to take a flight from there. With only 1 mantra of “Darr ke aage jeet hai”, I took my first flight from the height of 75 ft and I was feeling great. Then, the glider descended down at a much faster rate and I experienced a sudden weightlessness and I thought I was going to fall on the below rocks. In that one second, I realized the speed of thoughts but the glider descended slowly afterwards and I had a smooth landing. My brother and sister too had similar feelings but at the end, we managed to control the glider in the air and were ready for our big solo flights.

Beautiful Pavna site

We came back to our base and had to give our theory tests (how boring. Theory tests here too!!!) The test was to be taken on the 3^rd day but we thought to complete it on the 2^nd day itself. It was a very small test based on what we had learnt and did in our 1 and a half day and we passed with flying gliders! In the evening, we went to Pavna site for gliding and the view was mesmerizing. We stood at a height of 350 ft facing the river in the front with cool breeze blowing towards us and had to glide all the way down near the shore of the river. We were a little scared of the height from which we had to glide down and had to cross electric lines and houses and trees before reaching our decided landing spot. But I had a song on my mind – “Sarfaroshi ki tamanna, ab hamare dil me hai . . .” I inflated my glider and started my flight well. I was just following the instructions given by the instructors to control the glider and its flight path. Once I saw that I was crossing the electric lines and I was way above it, I became normal and started enjoying the nature and my flight. I got back my smile and glided in the air like a free bird and finally landed perfectly at the pre-decided location. It was an over-whelming experience. I radioed my brother and sister not to worry and just enjoy their flights. We were thrilled, boosted with confidence and had one of the most beautiful experience of flying on our own. We got what we came for and it was simply superb. On our 3^rd day, we had a couple of flights and enjoyed them but the joy and thrill we experienced on our flight is beyond any comparison.

I believe I can fly 

I believe I can touch the sky 

I think about it every night and day 

Spread my wings and fly away 

I believe I can soar 

I see me running through that open door 

I believe I can fly

   If I just spread my wings, I can fly!!!

Every Girl is Ordinary . . .

Every Girl is Ordinary . . .

Hey girls,
lf you don't mind, l'll tell you a thing.

Every girl in this world is ordinary!
You look extraordinary because of our craze, else you are ordinary. We look with eyes shadowed by love, so you look wonderful. We look at you with desire and you look marvelous.

Somebody writes a song and we think it is about you. Just a layer of kohl on your eyes can melt us. We are happy seeing a flash of your waist. We can do anything just to get your one glimpse if we like you. Even a small smile is enough and we go on a hunt to find a place to build our Taj Mahal.

Now tell me one thing . . .
What is the connection between girls and sea waves? What is the link between you and moon? ls your laugh like moonlight? Can you really force the rain-god to shower by your dance?
lt's pure madness.

Basically boys are born poets, else no girl is extraordinary!

But one most important thing you got to know is...
Boys like ordinary girls. Being an extraordinary girl is to remain ordinary. The more you are ordinary, the more you are beautiful, the more you become desirable.

So my dear girls, simply be yourself and we boys will keep falling for you anyways.

The most fascinating person I've never met

The most fascinating person I've never met

Had it been 'ever' instead of 'never' in the title, it would have been much easier for me as I wouldn't have much choice other than my childhood love, the first friend of my life and my real life hero, my father (although choosing between both of them is also quite difficult).

Anyways, hearing of the title, the first name which came to my mind was my childhood hero, the GOD of cricket, Sachin Ramesh Tendulkar. I know that no one outside my home knows that I have always been a die-hard Sachin fan. Ever since I have enjoyed watching cricket, my heart praises only him. I have always adored his intensity, attitude and his passion towards the game and the country.

The 2nd name to come in my mind was the person I idolize, Dr. A.P.J.Abdul Kalam. He has been a source of inspiration to millions of people in the country including me from my school days. His vision and spirit help me in self-motivation.

The 3rd name to think of was Bill Gates, who brought people close to computers or vice versa. From the initial days of my school when I just started using computers, I have dreamt of meeting him and being a part of Microsoft. (It doesn't matter much now as he is not heading it anymore)

While I was thinking of names like Michael Schumacher, Ratan Tata, Bhagat Singh and many more who are my favorites and have motivated me all my life, I was becoming sure of one thing that they have just been a source of inspiration and although I adore them, I have never wanted to be another copy of them.

So, whom am I actually fascinated with and before that, what am I really fascinated with ???

I am not after name and fame, rather I dream of a person who is adventure loving, listens to his heart, prioritizes his family and friends before everything, can do stupidest things without hesitation and above all, knows the art of making his life happy and beautiful along with people around him.

I think I know such a person but I would prefer he should not be named along with the above names and it is my bad luck/good luck that I can't even meet him ever.

Jab baat dil me koi nahi . . .

       Jab baat dil me koi nahi . . .

Aankhein hain nam kyun

jab baat dil me koi nahi

neend hai aajkal kam kyun

      jab baat dil me koi nahi . . .

sapne bhi to hain jaali

baatein bhi khali khali

dard dil me hai utha kyun

      jab baat dil me koi nahi . . .

na din ka pata, na main janu raat

mujhme na rahi wo purani baat

har pal, har chhan main marta kyun

      jab baat dil me koi nahi . . .

ghar-parivar, dost-yaar rishtedaar

sabse hi main kat gaya hun

kitne tukdo me bat gaya hun

mere khwab bhi dhundhle ho rahe kyun

      jab baat dil me koi nahi . . .

gum ho gayi jindagi kahin

na jane kya karna chahun

ek pal hasna, rona chahun

ek pal jeena, marna chahun

na jane hai khushiyan kam kyun

      jab baat dil me koi nahi . . .

dil ki hi to hardam sunta hun

dil se hi main sab kuchh karta hun

par dheere-dheere, haule-haule

dil ki main na ab sun pata hun

dil se main na kuchh kar pata hun

dil apna hi lagta paraya kyun

      jab baat dil me koi nahi . . .

Letter to someone very close to my heart

Letter to someone very close to my heart

My dearest dreamgirl,

I love you and I love you very much.
I see you in my dreams, I see you with my eyes open. I have ceased to know the difference between my dream and reality. One second, I believe you are with me, the next second I know you are not. I am happy and sad at the same time. I am dying, I am dying without you.

I'm searching you...
I'm waiting for you...
To see you once,
I'm ready to die a million deaths...

I don't know when and how I started loving you but I know I am incomplete without you. My love is a sea of two drops of tears, a journey to eternity and I'll love to have you with me in this journey . . .
I don't know if we will ever meet or not but I'll wait and I'll wait for you till my last breadth.

Love you.

Yours and truly only yours,
Rakesh

Dil ki kashti

Dil ki kashti

Mere dil ki gehraiyon me

doooooooor kisi kone me

duniya ki najron se bacha ke

band darwajon me chhupa ke

hai ek chhota sa raaz daba hua

jane kab, kis se khafa hua

batlana main sabko chahun

par chabi tak na jaa paoon

koi khol de dil ke taale ko

aajaad kare mann matwale ko

dil jhoom jara nache-gaaye

lafz aankhon se gar beh jaaye

har bandhan aaj mera toote

koi naya raag mann me foote

ho soch nayi, ho pyaas nayi

jeevan jeene ki aas nayi

aur hawaon me bhi ho

ek nayi taazgi, barsaat nayi

ud jaun main is nabh ke paar

kalpanao ke main pankh pasaar

jeevan-mrityu ke is majhdaar

me khushiyon ke dhoondun pal char

haste-gaate beete har pal

jeene ka lun andaaj badal

har pal me masti poori ho

na khwaish koi adhoori ho

chahe meri har saans, har dhadkan

      ho mere FUNeral me bhi FUN . . .

Ek Khwaab dekha, jisme tumhe dekha

Ek Khwaab dekha, jisme tumhe dekha

Ek Khwaab dekha

jisme tumhe dekha

tum lag rahe the achchhe

sundar, salone bachche

bachche hain hote natkhat

din bhar hain karte khat-pat

bachpan ki wo nadani

sunna dadi ki kahani

baarish ki wo pyaari naav

khelna - dhoop ho ya chaanv

masti bhare har mausam

      the awesome, awesome, awesome . . .

O...O...sorry for getting lost

     fir se start karta hun . . .

Ek Khwaab dekha

jisme tumhe dekha

tum saamne khade the

hum bike pe ade the

bike pe doston sang masti

karna raat bhar matargashti

birthday bumps ki laatein

wo proposals ki baatein

wo january ki ice-cream

Katrina in Gallardo ka dream

wo life kya sahi thi

      masti me kat rahi thi . . .

O...O...fir se bhatak gaya

      ek baar fir try karta hun . . .

Ek Khwaab dekha

jisme tumhe dekha

haule se jo tum sharmayi

mere dil pe keher dhayi

dil se bhi kuchh hamein yaad aaya hai

khidki khuli, ek chehra saamne paaya hai

muskaan to aisi hai katilana

kar deti hai mujhko deewana

surili aawaaj ka jo jaadu hai

kar deta dil ko bekaabu hai

par dooriyon se aankh bhar aayi hai

      gam aur khushi sang layi hai . . .

O...O...not again

lagta hai aaj din hi achchha nahi hai

chalo kisi aur din tumhe sunaunga

apna khwaab apni najron se dikhaunga

mood to hamara aaj bhi sahi hai

aur baat dil ne yahi kahi hai

ki

Ek Khwaab dekha

      jisme tumhe dekha . . .

ज़िन्दगी

ज़िन्दगी

खुश रहना सिखलाए ज़िन्दगी
गम का एहसास कराए ज़िन्दगी
इंसान जो न करना चाहे
उससे वो भी करवाए ज़िन्दगी

राहों में जो हों कांटे
विचलित न जरा होना
आग में तप कर ही
खरा सोना बनाए ज़िन्दगी

हर पल की है कुछ कीमत
हर शख्स जरूरी है
गर आज नहीं तो कल
मिट जानी ये दूरी है
हर रूह अधूरी है
पूरी करवाए ज़िन्दगी
गर तुमको है चाहत
दिलों को मिलवाए ज़िन्दगी

जीवन में जो हो संगी
दुनिया ख्वाबों से जिसके रंगी
हो साथ तो जी सकते हैं
       एक लम्हे में पूरी ज़िन्दगी  . . .