Tuesday 27 August 2013

Diary of an unsocial human


Diary of an unsocial human


Society – Our human conglomerations, where we live, grow up and build relationships with other people around us. As rightly said by Aristotle – “Man is by nature a social animal”. Society and man complement each other – existence of both is not possible without the other. People of different customs and creed come together, become friends, live in harmony, share their happiness and grief, have differences yet find peace in co-existence. I think that is the reason why social science is considered as a very important science and social networking sites generate so huge revenue.

Coming back to me, there was a time; I was quite a social person. Friends, parties, adventure were my life and I used to go to any extent to satisfy myself, fulfill my desires and still urge for more. There was a never ending triumph for FUN in my life. And then
jane kis ki hamein lag gayi hai najar, is sheher me na apna thikana raha. There was a complete flip in my life – I lost interest in adventure, rarely contact friends, stopped recharging sms packs, left facebook, even forgot a few birthdays(now, this is completely opposite of my nature) – in short, as some of my friends have even started telling me, I have almost gone out of this world.

There is nothing wrong with me. I am not hiding from or avoiding anyone. I am just trying to check my limit of loneliness by trying to stay away from everyone as much as possible – I hope this would look like quite a justifiable and logical thing for a person of my nature and caliber but afsos, even which is not the case. I am not sure but maybe I am a changed person now and I just don’t have an aptitude to mingle with others anymore. Or a more probable answer which I could think of is that I want a break from all the chaos around me to bring my heart and mind at peace and then someday, I will again be my normal self – adventure loving, fun seeking friend you all know. I just hope with my fingers crossed that till that day, I am still in your heart and not ‘poof, gone out of your lives!’ I don’t know where I might be and to whom I would still have contact in the future but till then, I would like to quote the song ‘Boulevard of broken dreams’ by ‘Green Days’ for my present life –


I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone, I walk alone
I walk alone, I walk a...

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

   Till then I walk alone . . .

Monday 26 August 2013

Life vs Death

Life vs Death


Life and Death - what a deadly combo!!!
Recently, one of my friends told me that he wanted to do suicide and finish his torturous, almost hell like life as he couldn't bear the frustrations anymore. Although I know that he didn't have the slightest guts to do that but it made me wonder that how could anyone be so hopeless from himself to even think of leaving this magnificent world?

This made me wonder that why do people even think of ending their life. May be bcoz we humans have this tendency of giving importance to negative thoughts more than the positive ones. Whatever be the situation, we spend more time searching for flaws and their solution rather than focusing on the merits and it might be that people think dying is a lot easier and quicker solution to their misfortune but I am still unable to understand that how can we justify death as a solution to end all our miseries. Are we really so helpless that we can’t handle our situation and its over-mounting stress.

I tried to figure out the reasons of people doing suicide. The first reason coming to my mind is when people(you might have read about farmers of many states in India) have absolutely no hope of improving their situation and can't bear to see their loved ones' pain, they choose to end their life rather than seeing their family suffer. Rightly said by Friedrich Nietzsche - "Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man." One case is when students commit suicide after failing in exams. This is one of the most avoidable situations. Youth should not be pressurized so much for performing out of their scope that they lose their self-confidence and choose the path of utmost failure and hopelessness. Failure is not the end of the world. Rather, it should be the stepping stone of a new beginning. We should give them hope of a beautiful tomorrow coz "Hope is tomorrow's veneer over today's disappointment." Hope is important because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear. 

Then, one of the reasons of suicide is failure in love. I think it is the most stupid and irresponsible decisions made by people who have absolutely no sense of logic. Does life stop due to departure of anyone from our life? My suggestion to such people would be to be logical and stop living in their past. Once you realize the past is only a story, it has no power over you and you can move forward to a new future. Let me share 4 lines of someone close to my heart – 

har dil me kisi ke liye dua hoti hai                       हर दिल में किसी के लिए दुआ होती है 
har dard me koi chhupa baitha hai                     हर दर्द में कोई छुपा बैठा है 
dil ka dard karein bayaan kaise                            दिल का दर्द करें बयान कैसे 
jab dard se hi ishq hone laga hai                          जब दर्द से ही इश्क होने लगा है 

My dear friends, it might look poetic and be your own situation but believe me, its absolute filmy bullshit and although it might not feel that easy, but the path to happiness is quite simple - "Just forget the past and move on". Let me quote a few lines from one of my own blogs - "Life is not about crying – it is about living eachday as a new beginning, giving your best shot, enjoying each & every momentfully and celebrating & sharing your happiness with your near & dear ones. It is important what you want in life, but it is more important what you have in life.Your life is in your hands. Lead it, don't follow it."

At the end, I just want to say what is written on the top of this blog and what I believe from the bottom of my heart - "Life is very beautiful. Enjoy it to the fullest and Have a nice day! :-)"

Friday 19 April 2013

The End but Life goes on . . .


The End but Life goes on . . .

My blogging started with a feeling so pure and magical and very close to my heart – Love. I was at the top of the world and it made me unreel new dimensions within me. Everyone says love hurts, but that isn't true. Loneliness hurts, rejection hurts, losing someone hurts, even envy may hurt. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt rather it makes you strong at heart. Albert Einstein said – “Don't let your brain interfere with your heart” and I truly agree with him. Our minds can be delured sometimes but as it is rightly said – “Our heart is in the left but is always right”.

Life is full of ironies and I am a living example of it. I might be the luckiest person on this Earth but still the unluckiest of all. I frequently hear people say to me – “I envy you” and they would love a life like me and I always say in my heart – “May you never have a life like mine”. Yes, I did fall in love but believe me gravity had nothing to do in this. I loved someone and I loved her so much that I even forgot myself in front of her. It might not have been reciprocated but it doesn’t matter much as I never had any expectations from her. इश्क दी मेरे मित्रा पहचान की, मिट जाए जदों जिद अपनान दी”. I might have got carried away for a few moments but that’s it. Getting carried away is typically not of my taste.

Well, when there was nothing from her side, what is this blog all about?  This is to mark the end of a very beautiful journey, an experience worth cherishing but even memories are not in my fate. (Ohh, from when did I start believing in stuff like fate or destiny???) Reality is quite subtle in its own nature. As per Zeno’s paradox, it is quite simple that we would never ever meet coz we would always have that infinitesimal distance between us. In simple terms, I mean that as promised, its over from my side. I don’t see her when I close my eyes now. I might not be as happy as I was a few days ago but as I always say - life goes on and its not gonna stop for anybody. Life is beautiful - enjoy it to the fullest and Have a nice day ! :-)

Thursday 7 March 2013

I, Me aur Main


I, Me aur Main


No, I am not writing this motivated by some stupid movie. Its mere coincidence that I found this title suitable for my blog. So, what am I up to today. I just want to admit that I am tooooo selfish.

When I send you SMSs, I just wish to be remembered. When I like your posts and pics on facebook, I wanna be liked. When I call you to know about you, my soul aim is to be in your thoughts. In fact, as you have already seen, I have posted my blog in facebook and Google+ for you to visit. May be I fear too much of being lost in the crowd, becoming a mere spectator watching out from an old album. Its not that I am too social or friendly or something. Rather I am avoiding many people these days but yes, the only reason why I am still active on facebook is just to be in touch with you.

I might be a little insecure in thinking people will forget me in due course of time but am I wrong??? Thats the way most of us(me included. I am not an exception) are these days. You don't call, SMS or ping a person for 1-2 months and pooof!!! you are out of his/her life. Just like snapping of your fingers. Wow, thats quick, quicker than even my thoughts. But, I wish to be a part of your life, even a small part would do. My selfish self-esteem is again not caring for any of your feelings or whatever you might think about me but I want my happiness to prevail throughout my life and that my friend, can't be complete without you.

I remember a few lines by a very 'mahaan vyakti' quite apt for my blog -


Duniya ye badi sayani hai
ajab yahan ki kahani hai
har dil yahan adhoora hai
aur chahta hona poora hai
par jaane kahan atakta hai
kis raah pe ye bhatakta hai
meethe bas do vachan to bolo 
aankhon ke pardon ko kholo
khuli aankhon se jahan hai sundar
band aankhon se kaala saaya
rone se hai kuchh nahi milta
tumne kya khoya, kya paaya
paana hardam nahi jaroori
na jane hai kaisi majboori
masti me chahein rehna choor
par sangi-sathi se hi hain door
manjil to mila par raha main akela
chhoota jane kab khushiyon ka mela
har din ko naya banate dost
har pal me khushi dilate 'most'
doston ki dosti, hamein
jaan se bhi pyari hai
duniya ke rishton se badhkar
ae yaar, ye teri yaari hai . . .

Tuesday 12 February 2013

I have got Wings


I have got Wings

I had always dreamt to fly in the sky, free as a bird. For the last 1 year, I was trying to persuade my friends to go for paragliding with me but in vain. Then I decided to go alone but rockingly (don’t mind this English mistake please), my brother and sister decided to accompany me for this (seems like adventure is in our blood). Our parents had all kinds of fears but I persuaded them and we went to Temple Pilots for our 3 days basic course of paragliding in Kamshet. We reached their base at 7:30 am and we had to go for the training straight-away. Soon, we were at the training hill and were briefed about the glider, its controls and the plan for the next 3 days of our stay.

Then we started the ground handling of the glider. We were shown how to inflate the glider, control it in the ground and run with the glider. It was looking quite simple but when we actually started to do it ourselves, we realized how difficult it was. When the glider was inflated, it exerted too much pressure on the hands and even pulled us back. Holding it and controlling was a difficult part and running with the glider even more. The glider would be deviating to its left and right with the wind and we would have to change our course of run with the glider to stabilize it. At times, the glider would even lift us up making it difficult to run. Finally after numerous tiring tries, we managed to control the glider properly on the ground.

Ground Handling of glider


Next, we were ready for our first small flights or hops as they are called. We climbed the training hill half-way and had to take a flight from there. With only 1 mantra of “Darr ke aage jeet hai”, I took my first flight from the height of 75 ft and I was feeling great. Then, the glider descended down at a much faster rate and I experienced a sudden weightlessness and I thought I was going to fall on the below rocks. In that one second, I realized the speed of thoughts but the glider descended slowly afterwards and I had a smooth landing. My brother and sister too had similar feelings but at the end, we managed to control the glider in the air and were ready for our big solo flights.

Beautiful Pavna site


We came back to our base and had to give our theory tests (how boring. Theory tests here too!!!) The test was to be taken on the 3rd day but we thought to complete it on the 2nd day itself. It was a very small test based on what we had learnt and did in our 1 and a half day and we passed with flying gliders! In the evening, we went to Pavna site for gliding and the view was mesmerizing. We stood at a height of 350 ft facing the river in the front with cool breeze blowing towards us and had to glide all the way down near the shore of the river. We were a little scared of the height from which we had to glide down and had to cross electric lines and houses and trees before reaching our decided landing spot. But I had a song on my mind – “Sarfaroshi ki tamanna, ab hamare dil me hai . . .” I inflated my glider and started my flight well. I was just following the instructions given by the instructors to control the glider and its flight path. Once I saw that I was crossing the electric lines and I was way above it, I became normal and started enjoying the nature and my flight. I got back my smile and glided in the air like a free bird and finally landed perfectly at the pre-decided location. It was an over-whelming experience. I radioed my brother and sister not to worry and just enjoy their flights. We were thrilled, boosted with confidence and had one of the most beautiful experience of flying on our own. We got what we came for and it was simply superb. On our 3rd day, we had a couple of flights and enjoyed them but the joy and thrill we experienced on our flight is beyond any comparison.























I believe I can fly 
I believe I can touch the sky 
I think about it every night and day 
Spread my wings and fly away 
I believe I can soar 
I see me running through that open door 
I believe I can fly

   If I just spread my wings, I can fly!!!




Thursday 24 January 2013

Every Girl is Ordinary . . .


Every Girl is Ordinary . . .


Hey girls,
lf you don't mind, l'll tell you a thing.

Every girl in this world is ordinary!
You look extraordinary because of our craze, else you are ordinary. We look with eyes shadowed by love, so you look wonderful. We look at you with desire and you look marvelous.

Somebody writes a song and we think it is about you. Just a layer of kohl on your eyes can melt us. We are happy seeing a flash of your waist. We can do anything just to get your one glimpse if we like you. Even a small smile is enough and we go on a hunt to find a place to build our Taj Mahal.

Now tell me one thing . . .
What is the connection between girls and sea waves? What is the link between you and moon? ls your laugh like moonlight? Can you really force the rain-god to shower by your dance?
lt's pure madness.

Basically boys are born poets, else no girl is extraordinary!

But one most important thing you got to know is...
Boys like ordinary girls. Being an extraordinary girl is to remain ordinary. The more you are ordinary, the more you are beautiful, the more you become desirable.

So my dear girls, simply be yourself and we boys will keep falling for you anyways.